This is a bathroom blog.
So today I walk into the public restroom at work. There is a woman brushing her teeth in there. Not just a little touch up...or de-onion-ifying wash.... But a full on brush-brush-brush, gargle-gargle-gargle, swish-swish-swish teeth cleaning. In a public restroom.
Now maybe I am crazy for thinking her crazy.
Now maybe she is crazy.
Now maybe I am vain because I would never brush my teeth in a public restroom.
Maybe I just have a mild OCD/issues with social behaviours.
But I really think people who do things like that are crazy.
Have you ever been sitting on the toilet in a public restroom taking a dump, when a particularly manly (or in a man's case- womanly) set of feet/shoes pass while finding a stall? Sometimes I freak out inside and start to wonder if I am in the wrong restroom by mistake. At which I start to try to remember where each restroom is loacted and how I got there and then calculate my possibility for error.
Does that ever happen to you? No? Odd.
And then when you come out from thinking maybe you're in the wrong restroom that lady has moved on to moisturizing her face. At this point you wonder why she didn't get ready at home? Or is this normal behaviour these days?
Also talking to people who are in a stall/from a stall. Akward? Or socially acceptable?
I have done this with pretty close friends, but it still creeps me out because everyone else in the restroom is very obviously listening to us.
I don't like people talking to my conversations. I listen to others' in public and they always sound stupid.... So I'm pretty sure I also sound stupid when I talk to people who don't know me....
And then you add in the fact that you're in a bathroom.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Thanksgiving
It is about 3am or so... Even Patrick went to bed before me...weird.
I like cake.
My mom's cat is so FAT. Not even kidding. It is like 3 of my cat.
I'm feeling good about life. Like at peace with who I am and my skills and defects and areas that need improvement. I like this feeling. Finally.
I like cake.
My mom's cat is so FAT. Not even kidding. It is like 3 of my cat.
I'm feeling good about life. Like at peace with who I am and my skills and defects and areas that need improvement. I like this feeling. Finally.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Cat Olympics
Today we had the funniest time with Dinah.... We went to Walgreens at 1am for Christmas Decorations...but Dinah will NOT leave the garlands alone so we decided to wear her out...
Funniest picture ever of kitty ninja taking down Emilee.
Drink of the day is a mudslide.
Also picture of amazing steak and about one hundredth of the sweet mashed potatoes.
Mmmmm Yum.
This household has been keeping weird hours.
My weird 80s/crazy person look that happened today. You CAN curl your hair with a straightener.... Weird, right?
Funniest picture ever of kitty ninja taking down Emilee.
Drink of the day is a mudslide.
Also picture of amazing steak and about one hundredth of the sweet mashed potatoes.
Mmmmm Yum.
This household has been keeping weird hours.
My weird 80s/crazy person look that happened today. You CAN curl your hair with a straightener.... Weird, right?
Monday, November 23, 2009
Hello Monday
Well, as the week starts over again I cannot say I am in any less of a melancholy mood than I have been all weekend. This new Pink Martini album, "Splendor in the Grass" is quite nice in matching it though. It makes me wish I was better at writing music. I try, but so far things sound super contrived and obvious. I suppose it takes a balance and there is some knack of not trying too hard. Which may be difficult for me.
I am fortunate to finally be in possession of a work schedule... it turned out nicely. I have my birthday and (one pen hits the floor, darn my cat found them) the day after it (two pens) off. I also have both days (three pens) after Christmas off, as well as Christmas obviously. And I don't think I have to be there till 2 the next day. Also I am a mid on New Years Eve and have New Years Day off.... It works beautifully! (waiting.... there are 2 more pens and a wine key up there....)
The odd thing about scheduling at work is they have 2 mids on Friday and Saturday.... But its not Elephant Bar, they DON'T need 2 mids. Instead they have the second mid come in at 2pm, to cover mid like things so that the first mid doesn't have to stay more than 8ish hours. Who does that? I mean as a person I'm fine with it.... But as a business person you're paying an extra manager when the first mid could just work for 10 hours instead. Bue thats the EBar talking.
The other day we had an Aloha Crash that started at 7pm and never stopped. We closed an hour early because of it. It was frustrating, but not unusual.... At least they weren't using KDS... lol
I do miss the crazy busy of EBar, but because of the lack of stress my life has been shaping up much nicer.... I have energy to do other things with my life. Like write this. I still am very defeatist about some things, but I'm sure that will come around.
I am fortunate to finally be in possession of a work schedule... it turned out nicely. I have my birthday and (one pen hits the floor, darn my cat found them) the day after it (two pens) off. I also have both days (three pens) after Christmas off, as well as Christmas obviously. And I don't think I have to be there till 2 the next day. Also I am a mid on New Years Eve and have New Years Day off.... It works beautifully! (waiting.... there are 2 more pens and a wine key up there....)
The odd thing about scheduling at work is they have 2 mids on Friday and Saturday.... But its not Elephant Bar, they DON'T need 2 mids. Instead they have the second mid come in at 2pm, to cover mid like things so that the first mid doesn't have to stay more than 8ish hours. Who does that? I mean as a person I'm fine with it.... But as a business person you're paying an extra manager when the first mid could just work for 10 hours instead. Bue thats the EBar talking.
The other day we had an Aloha Crash that started at 7pm and never stopped. We closed an hour early because of it. It was frustrating, but not unusual.... At least they weren't using KDS... lol
I do miss the crazy busy of EBar, but because of the lack of stress my life has been shaping up much nicer.... I have energy to do other things with my life. Like write this. I still am very defeatist about some things, but I'm sure that will come around.
New Organization
Alrighty, in an effort to stream line my completely random and scattered thoughts I have recombined my blogs... So all restaurant ranting will happen here as a) my need to be tactful about what I say to the general public limits my ability to write copious amounts (for a personal and completely untactful rant please call my cell), and b) I always babble about unrelated things anyways.... so maybe this is more relevant.
So I guess I'm not streamlining, I'm dumping in a smaller defined area.
Also, fashion blog demands time and was acting pissy about me creating a 3rd blog to take my time away.
Anywho- recent news...
On restaurants- I am the bar manager of a very inefficient bar. I have a lot of hard work ahead of me. (A lot... see mom, see?)
On boys- pooh
On photo shoots- I had the best one ever this past week. Maybe soon I'll have retouched pictures for show and tell.
On sweet potatos- 3 potatoes make a crap load of mashed potatos... picture pending...
On Bejeweled- I WILL stop playing once I beat someone else... for the day at least.
On Flash Developers for Facebook- why do you people keep taking my tme and holding it hostage and cutting its fingers off? Why can't you do something more meaningful?
On MAC- Best foundation ever. Don't let your cat knock it over.
On being younger than everyone you're in charge of- Sucky, sucky pressure.
On cars- Bad timing and annoying. Also pooh... Please refer to boys.
On dads- Awesome.
On CHP- Great when not writing you tickets.
On Coffee- The addiction is going strong!
On Vodka- Mud slide.
Okay, I think thats a nice overview.
So I guess I'm not streamlining, I'm dumping in a smaller defined area.
Also, fashion blog demands time and was acting pissy about me creating a 3rd blog to take my time away.
Anywho- recent news...
On restaurants- I am the bar manager of a very inefficient bar. I have a lot of hard work ahead of me. (A lot... see mom, see?)
On boys- pooh
On photo shoots- I had the best one ever this past week. Maybe soon I'll have retouched pictures for show and tell.
On sweet potatos- 3 potatoes make a crap load of mashed potatos... picture pending...
On Bejeweled- I WILL stop playing once I beat someone else... for the day at least.
On Flash Developers for Facebook- why do you people keep taking my tme and holding it hostage and cutting its fingers off? Why can't you do something more meaningful?
On MAC- Best foundation ever. Don't let your cat knock it over.
On being younger than everyone you're in charge of- Sucky, sucky pressure.
On cars- Bad timing and annoying. Also pooh... Please refer to boys.
On dads- Awesome.
On CHP- Great when not writing you tickets.
On Coffee- The addiction is going strong!
On Vodka- Mud slide.
Okay, I think thats a nice overview.
Other Blogs
I'm moving my Restaurant Posts Back to Here.... Dey is below.
Nov 3,2009
Note to self- People don't like when the noob criticizes how you do things....
Sunday I forgot about the time change and since Burlingame serves brunch on Saturday and Sunday this caused me to be awake at 5am... I ALMOST walked out the door at 6am, but luckily just then noticed and had a 30 minute nap.
Anyways, I opened the restaurant, about the third time now. It's pretty smooth. The reports I have to do are sense making and minimal. We like that.
So far I love the food... On Sunday I had a breakfast croissant sandwich with chicken apple sausage....mmm it was good!
They keep making me follow servers which is incredably annoying because I know how to serve very well. I am frustrated that I am not spending that time studying the food. Every chance I get I just run away and hangout in the kitchen and learn.
I LOVE kitchen people. Juan, who runs the catering company, went to a Le Cordon Bleu school and also specializes in Italian and Spanish cooking as well as French. He is so cool to talk to and willing to answer all my questions. He is a huge fan of Italy and Italian food, we've been talking about it alot. I like sneaking away to spend time with him, because he understands the importance of managers learning about the food.
The kitchen manager and the sous chef (who recently came from Elephant Bar) are both named Miguel. They are also both really great to talk to. It's funny, sometimes KM Miguel runs front of house shifts also. He makes me think of Martin alot.
I have to say, on the overall, I am really impressed with their kitchen and their food. I want to be very involved in it as a front of house manager. I think doing diligent line checks is one thing I want to keep on top of. So far with the whirlwind of different things (following servers?) I've only been able to do one line check. Ahem, now I need a thermometer, Freddy stole mine.
This weekend was super slow, probably due to Halloween. On Saturday they let the servers dress up, which was nice. I like to see a little work spirit here and there. Or alot. Yah know.
Alright, well I'm back at work tomorrow and I'll have more to talk about.
Oct 30, 2009
Anyways- Yesterday, which I thought was Wednesday and was apparantly Thursday, was my second day of training in the restaurant. There was a big meeting that took FOREVER that I was not part of. The bartender however was. So I was told to "watch" the bar while Jan (an assistant manager) watched the floor. And then happy hour started. Mind you, I know none of their recipes. All I know is a shot by their standards is 1.25 oz.... So I got to have a little fun there... left ALONE for happy hour. *Pet Peeve* When someone who does not have access to the keg room asks for the a keg change...and does not get it right away... Generally I need a keg change because I am in the middle of selling that beer to a customer. NOT, as popular thought apparantly is, because I was just playing around with the taps and ran one until it ran out.
Obvious goal- As a manager, do not forget that when a bartender needs something from the liquor room... it's not just for fun.
Today- I more or less did all of the opening today. From now on whenever I come in in the morning I shall be doing all of the opening work. Scary. Not for me...but just scary that they trust me with all of that. Then I played server...shadowing another server. I got bored after awhile and just started taking tables and getting them things. I can out serve alot of people. Not to sound cocky, but I can. I can't stand the lack of urgency of some of the staff. I know we are not turning and burning here, but there is a certain promptness which people deserve. Getting drinks out, being on top of refills, being accommodating, bussing the crap out of everything... I cannot stand a lack of acknowledgment... Fine, don't greet them... But let them know you're aware they exist. I know myself I get so fidgety if my server doesn't acknowledge me... You start wondering if maybe you're invisible. Like last night I went out for a few drinks (different place)... We started wondering if maybe a car had hit us and we were dead... It took the bartender(s) a decade to even acknowledge our existence. Seriously guys. The server in me can just not let the manager in me let this continue to happen.
Alright... I'm going to leave this entry on an abrupt note as always..
Nov 3,2009
Note to self- People don't like when the noob criticizes how you do things....
Sunday I forgot about the time change and since Burlingame serves brunch on Saturday and Sunday this caused me to be awake at 5am... I ALMOST walked out the door at 6am, but luckily just then noticed and had a 30 minute nap.
Anyways, I opened the restaurant, about the third time now. It's pretty smooth. The reports I have to do are sense making and minimal. We like that.
So far I love the food... On Sunday I had a breakfast croissant sandwich with chicken apple sausage....mmm it was good!
They keep making me follow servers which is incredably annoying because I know how to serve very well. I am frustrated that I am not spending that time studying the food. Every chance I get I just run away and hangout in the kitchen and learn.
I LOVE kitchen people. Juan, who runs the catering company, went to a Le Cordon Bleu school and also specializes in Italian and Spanish cooking as well as French. He is so cool to talk to and willing to answer all my questions. He is a huge fan of Italy and Italian food, we've been talking about it alot. I like sneaking away to spend time with him, because he understands the importance of managers learning about the food.
The kitchen manager and the sous chef (who recently came from Elephant Bar) are both named Miguel. They are also both really great to talk to. It's funny, sometimes KM Miguel runs front of house shifts also. He makes me think of Martin alot.
I have to say, on the overall, I am really impressed with their kitchen and their food. I want to be very involved in it as a front of house manager. I think doing diligent line checks is one thing I want to keep on top of. So far with the whirlwind of different things (following servers?) I've only been able to do one line check. Ahem, now I need a thermometer, Freddy stole mine.
This weekend was super slow, probably due to Halloween. On Saturday they let the servers dress up, which was nice. I like to see a little work spirit here and there. Or alot. Yah know.
Alright, well I'm back at work tomorrow and I'll have more to talk about.
Oct 30, 2009
Zee Resteraunt... Eet is yourhz
Alrighty... I am going to continue my restaurant blog over here. It just seems like a good idea. I like things to be congruous.Anyways- Yesterday, which I thought was Wednesday and was apparantly Thursday, was my second day of training in the restaurant. There was a big meeting that took FOREVER that I was not part of. The bartender however was. So I was told to "watch" the bar while Jan (an assistant manager) watched the floor. And then happy hour started. Mind you, I know none of their recipes. All I know is a shot by their standards is 1.25 oz.... So I got to have a little fun there... left ALONE for happy hour. *Pet Peeve* When someone who does not have access to the keg room asks for the a keg change...and does not get it right away... Generally I need a keg change because I am in the middle of selling that beer to a customer. NOT, as popular thought apparantly is, because I was just playing around with the taps and ran one until it ran out.
Obvious goal- As a manager, do not forget that when a bartender needs something from the liquor room... it's not just for fun.
Today- I more or less did all of the opening today. From now on whenever I come in in the morning I shall be doing all of the opening work. Scary. Not for me...but just scary that they trust me with all of that. Then I played server...shadowing another server. I got bored after awhile and just started taking tables and getting them things. I can out serve alot of people. Not to sound cocky, but I can. I can't stand the lack of urgency of some of the staff. I know we are not turning and burning here, but there is a certain promptness which people deserve. Getting drinks out, being on top of refills, being accommodating, bussing the crap out of everything... I cannot stand a lack of acknowledgment... Fine, don't greet them... But let them know you're aware they exist. I know myself I get so fidgety if my server doesn't acknowledge me... You start wondering if maybe you're invisible. Like last night I went out for a few drinks (different place)... We started wondering if maybe a car had hit us and we were dead... It took the bartender(s) a decade to even acknowledge our existence. Seriously guys. The server in me can just not let the manager in me let this continue to happen.
Alright... I'm going to leave this entry on an abrupt note as always..
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Yummy food...
I thought I would post random pictures of food I've made recently.
Sauteed veggies over 7 grain pasta with sauce. And fresh garlic bread.
Herb salad with marinated onion and tomato and fresh mozarella.
Fake chicken fajitas. Fake chicken is very good in fajitas. Not so in caeser salad. I used onions, peppers, and seasoning and then put it in corn tortillas with Southwestern salsa. With a side of black beans and cheese.
Bocaburger with grilled onions topped with melted cheese on whole wheat. Carrots!
Peppers are now the officially most eaten vegetable in this household.
Sauteed veggies over 7 grain pasta with sauce. And fresh garlic bread.
Herb salad with marinated onion and tomato and fresh mozarella.
Fake chicken fajitas. Fake chicken is very good in fajitas. Not so in caeser salad. I used onions, peppers, and seasoning and then put it in corn tortillas with Southwestern salsa. With a side of black beans and cheese.
Bocaburger with grilled onions topped with melted cheese on whole wheat. Carrots!Peppers are now the officially most eaten vegetable in this household.
SYTYCD rants 1st week of eliminations
My tirade on the first perform/eliminate show...
First off I think it sucks that they couldn't do a seperate show...so much pressure.
Secondly- Noooo Billy.... His technique is amazing and when he performs he knows how to PERFORM...not just do the contemporary thing and turn inward... I want to steal him and make him do LOTS of ballet FOREVER.
Ahem... Noelle, I don't even remember her. Isn't that sad?
1st number waaas- Phillip, I expected him to do well at the Jive and I think he did do pretty well. Channing....I agree, not using her plie. Not a bad number, but what I expected.
2nd- Ah Jakob, can I have him also? Ashleigh was like a glittery prop for this.... His jumps are AMAZING. I liked the number...but would have liked to see a female who could have shone a little more against him.
3rd- I thought Peter did okay with the hip hop moves. Ariana was dull. Between them they could have made the piece alot cuter, funnier, charater-y, something. Just bleh.
4th- Poor Russell. Melanie is scary looking. And it was so dark for this piece it was hard to see him. More lighting please. I think he did well, but it was hard to judge.
5th- I tend to like Tyce pieces... I liked this one alot once I thought about it. I thought Bianca did insanely well... her being a tapper and all. Something about the costumes turned me off though.
6th- Karen and Kevin cha cha. Ugh. Sometimes Toni and Meredith's choreography falls SO flat for me. The costuming was stupid for starters. She was all sparkly and he was boring. He looked like an escort she'd hired just to sortof go to a dinner party with her. He is a pretty man, though, I'll admit. No wonder he models. Anywho- She is hot, but I feel like their choreography ignored him, which is unfair, since he is a competing dancer- not just a partner. And using "Push It" as music? I was waiting for the dance to start the whole time.... I felt like (with the help of the music) the dance was just idling the whole time. Yes, Karen is hot and can shake her hips...but that doesn't make the piece good.
7th- Crazy crazy face Sonya I'm emo but live in candyland look how I did my hair today's choreography... I think I would have liked it more...if the music had been better. Again I never really felt like it got going. Also not impressed with Ellenore...I feel she is extremely cocky but never delivers the quality of dance that cockiness warrants. It was okay, but Sonya is on a meh streak for me.
8th- Pauline and Brandon... OMG fucking cute tiny asian couple.... OMG cute asian couple at prom... awwww. Umm... Where was the glideyness of the smooth waltz? I felt it was not good, if pretty. Poor dude got the short end of the stick. They should have just had Pasha or someone come fill in... Then in the event Noelle doesn't get fixed (she had a HUGE brace on) then they can make a partnership out of her and Billy's partners. It's not like they don't KNOW a fuckton of dancers who would drop everything to fill in... So sortof Pauline got the short end of the stick also.
9th- Kathryn and Legacy? I don't remember Kathryn? But I do now! I thought it was fun, funny, had spark....and they did really well. I think it had the entertainment quality I expect PLUS was well executed. Costuming was also creative and stuffs.
10th- OMFG, sign them to Disney. I can't handle the cuteness....
However, that being said.... I LOVE good disco... (I would right?) And I thought it was GREAT, and retardedly fast which is GREAT!
Eliminations Boys- That was just unfair. Poor Brandon, and well I don't think Russell deserves bottom 2. Gotta say as much as I like Russell, I thought Brandon had a much better solo.
Girls- Pauline was also at a disadvantage. Ariana- don't remember her. I know shes contemporary...(is she?) but there are so many better contemporary, ballet, jazz dancers out there who can do exactly what she was doing. Plus her solo was desperate.
Ahem...thats it for now...
First off I think it sucks that they couldn't do a seperate show...so much pressure.
Secondly- Noooo Billy.... His technique is amazing and when he performs he knows how to PERFORM...not just do the contemporary thing and turn inward... I want to steal him and make him do LOTS of ballet FOREVER.
Ahem... Noelle, I don't even remember her. Isn't that sad?
1st number waaas- Phillip, I expected him to do well at the Jive and I think he did do pretty well. Channing....I agree, not using her plie. Not a bad number, but what I expected.
2nd- Ah Jakob, can I have him also? Ashleigh was like a glittery prop for this.... His jumps are AMAZING. I liked the number...but would have liked to see a female who could have shone a little more against him.
3rd- I thought Peter did okay with the hip hop moves. Ariana was dull. Between them they could have made the piece alot cuter, funnier, charater-y, something. Just bleh.
4th- Poor Russell. Melanie is scary looking. And it was so dark for this piece it was hard to see him. More lighting please. I think he did well, but it was hard to judge.
5th- I tend to like Tyce pieces... I liked this one alot once I thought about it. I thought Bianca did insanely well... her being a tapper and all. Something about the costumes turned me off though.
6th- Karen and Kevin cha cha. Ugh. Sometimes Toni and Meredith's choreography falls SO flat for me. The costuming was stupid for starters. She was all sparkly and he was boring. He looked like an escort she'd hired just to sortof go to a dinner party with her. He is a pretty man, though, I'll admit. No wonder he models. Anywho- She is hot, but I feel like their choreography ignored him, which is unfair, since he is a competing dancer- not just a partner. And using "Push It" as music? I was waiting for the dance to start the whole time.... I felt like (with the help of the music) the dance was just idling the whole time. Yes, Karen is hot and can shake her hips...but that doesn't make the piece good.
7th- Crazy crazy face Sonya I'm emo but live in candyland look how I did my hair today's choreography... I think I would have liked it more...if the music had been better. Again I never really felt like it got going. Also not impressed with Ellenore...I feel she is extremely cocky but never delivers the quality of dance that cockiness warrants. It was okay, but Sonya is on a meh streak for me.
8th- Pauline and Brandon... OMG fucking cute tiny asian couple.... OMG cute asian couple at prom... awwww. Umm... Where was the glideyness of the smooth waltz? I felt it was not good, if pretty. Poor dude got the short end of the stick. They should have just had Pasha or someone come fill in... Then in the event Noelle doesn't get fixed (she had a HUGE brace on) then they can make a partnership out of her and Billy's partners. It's not like they don't KNOW a fuckton of dancers who would drop everything to fill in... So sortof Pauline got the short end of the stick also.
9th- Kathryn and Legacy? I don't remember Kathryn? But I do now! I thought it was fun, funny, had spark....and they did really well. I think it had the entertainment quality I expect PLUS was well executed. Costuming was also creative and stuffs.
10th- OMFG, sign them to Disney. I can't handle the cuteness....
However, that being said.... I LOVE good disco... (I would right?) And I thought it was GREAT, and retardedly fast which is GREAT!
Eliminations Boys- That was just unfair. Poor Brandon, and well I don't think Russell deserves bottom 2. Gotta say as much as I like Russell, I thought Brandon had a much better solo.
Girls- Pauline was also at a disadvantage. Ariana- don't remember her. I know shes contemporary...(is she?) but there are so many better contemporary, ballet, jazz dancers out there who can do exactly what she was doing. Plus her solo was desperate.
Ahem...thats it for now...
Friday, October 30, 2009
There is a divide....
It is a divide of the blogs... If you wish to read about my restaurant time it is now here at My Time With Max...
If you wish to read about my random thought doodling than please continue to follow here. Or follow both. Its all good.
Notes to self....
Noooo Billy.
Gah Jakob is too good.
I shall explain later.
If you wish to read about my random thought doodling than please continue to follow here. Or follow both. Its all good.
Notes to self....
Noooo Billy.
Gah Jakob is too good.
I shall explain later.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
1st Day in the Restaurant...
Yesterday was really my 1st day, but it was mostly paperwork, so I don't want to talk about it right now.
Today was my 1st day at Max's in Burlingame. I will be working at Max's on the Square in San Francisco once I finish my training on November 25th. I'm very happy about this...because... as much as I like Burlingame, it is sortof slow there, and I sortof like being busy. It is sortof glamorous working in the city...especially on Union Square and when your company pays your parking. I will be on Union Square. Duh. Also a very good friend is just starting as a manager 3 blocks away, so I can go get drunk at his restaurant/meet for lunch/after shift meals.
I love the restaurant so far. All the managers are awesome. The servers actually care about their job. The food is amazing. The food quality and control over food quality blows my mind. I learned so much today...how to open primarily... Alot of info in my head.
All in all, it is a very short training program. It is only one month... but that is okay... I am more of a doer and training makes me antsy...so I prefer to get it over with quick.
Ugh I'm SOOO tired. And I'm half drunk... three olives cherry vodka is VERY good. I need to sleep...
Today was my 1st day at Max's in Burlingame. I will be working at Max's on the Square in San Francisco once I finish my training on November 25th. I'm very happy about this...because... as much as I like Burlingame, it is sortof slow there, and I sortof like being busy. It is sortof glamorous working in the city...especially on Union Square and when your company pays your parking. I will be on Union Square. Duh. Also a very good friend is just starting as a manager 3 blocks away, so I can go get drunk at his restaurant/meet for lunch/after shift meals.
I love the restaurant so far. All the managers are awesome. The servers actually care about their job. The food is amazing. The food quality and control over food quality blows my mind. I learned so much today...how to open primarily... Alot of info in my head.
All in all, it is a very short training program. It is only one month... but that is okay... I am more of a doer and training makes me antsy...so I prefer to get it over with quick.
Ugh I'm SOOO tired. And I'm half drunk... three olives cherry vodka is VERY good. I need to sleep...
Monday, October 26, 2009
A new job!
New mission- to write almost daily, starting tomorrow... to chronicle my journey as an assistant manager at Max's restaurants.
I start in the morning at Max's on the Square. I'm super excited, I've always loved their restaurants, and now I work for them!
You've got to love any place that offers you coffee and pumpkin cheesecake at your first interview.
I start in the morning at Max's on the Square. I'm super excited, I've always loved their restaurants, and now I work for them!
You've got to love any place that offers you coffee and pumpkin cheesecake at your first interview.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Ugh...I ate too much cake...
Emilee and I walked to Safeway tonight, where I redeemed my free sandwich coupon and we also bought cake. I ate too much cake. Life just needs to slow the hell down, eating to deal with it never works.
So my car is booted, I may not have a job tomorrow, and I still have no credit cards or checks. Lovely.
Yes, I'm being over dramatic.
Oh well...
Things I would like...
No Debts.
To post to my blog daily without dragging my feet and being silly.
To practice my instrument daily.
For the SF DPT to explode mysteriously.
To work for an employer with ethics that treats his/her employees well on at LEAST one level.
A car that is not only amazingly fabulous but shrinks down to hand held size when you need to park.
To go to the gym/dance at least every other day.
To stop eating cheesecake and hot cheetos.
Shoes.
Things I dislike...
Ill behaved children.
Bugs.
Stupid hos.
My employer.
People who rob cars.
The SF DPT.
Brakes.
The fact that I am nowhere near as good at organizing my life as everyone/everyplace elses. (ie work... if I could tackle my life with half the time I spend at work than I would be amazing.)
When insanely intelligent and nice people can't get amazing jobs working for people that don't suck.
Trolls.
The fact that someday in the future I may have to once again search for a roommate.
Money.
I'm just rambling really. I was remembering earlier how I like to write. But I didn't really know where to start, since once you get out of the habit, it's hard to do. So rambling is as good a place as any. It's like one big sounding board.
Recently I read this book, "Bitter is the New Black" by Jen Lancaster. It was entertaining, but she didn't REALLY get evicted. Just almost evicted. So disappointing.
I am also currently reading the "Crown of Stars" series by Kate Elliott. It's good but a little sloggy and probably 4,200 pages in total.
Really, today was really bad. I was going to go to band and also to make some returns at Target and to buy garbage bags...but I got out the door and saw my car was booted. I think literally my heart almost stopped. And then I freaked out and couldn't find my trumpet or the items for return, when in all actuality I left them in the hallway to my house once I saw the car. I almost fainted. Seriously.
Things I am grateful for right now...
My family loves me.
I have shelves.
Rent is not due yet.
So my car is booted, I may not have a job tomorrow, and I still have no credit cards or checks. Lovely.
Yes, I'm being over dramatic.
Oh well...
Things I would like...
No Debts.
To post to my blog daily without dragging my feet and being silly.
To practice my instrument daily.
For the SF DPT to explode mysteriously.
To work for an employer with ethics that treats his/her employees well on at LEAST one level.
A car that is not only amazingly fabulous but shrinks down to hand held size when you need to park.
To go to the gym/dance at least every other day.
To stop eating cheesecake and hot cheetos.
Shoes.
Things I dislike...
Ill behaved children.
Bugs.
Stupid hos.
My employer.
People who rob cars.
The SF DPT.
Brakes.
The fact that I am nowhere near as good at organizing my life as everyone/everyplace elses. (ie work... if I could tackle my life with half the time I spend at work than I would be amazing.)
When insanely intelligent and nice people can't get amazing jobs working for people that don't suck.
Trolls.
The fact that someday in the future I may have to once again search for a roommate.
Money.
I'm just rambling really. I was remembering earlier how I like to write. But I didn't really know where to start, since once you get out of the habit, it's hard to do. So rambling is as good a place as any. It's like one big sounding board.
Recently I read this book, "Bitter is the New Black" by Jen Lancaster. It was entertaining, but she didn't REALLY get evicted. Just almost evicted. So disappointing.
I am also currently reading the "Crown of Stars" series by Kate Elliott. It's good but a little sloggy and probably 4,200 pages in total.
Really, today was really bad. I was going to go to band and also to make some returns at Target and to buy garbage bags...but I got out the door and saw my car was booted. I think literally my heart almost stopped. And then I freaked out and couldn't find my trumpet or the items for return, when in all actuality I left them in the hallway to my house once I saw the car. I almost fainted. Seriously.
Things I am grateful for right now...
My family loves me.
I have shelves.
Rent is not due yet.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Current Thoughts
Well...
I am graduating this weekend. Or rather not. I decided not to walk. My parent's would rather take me to dinner, and I would rather not sit in the elements for 6 hours straight. Expect graduation announcements....
Work is stressful. I sortof short circuited and stopped existing in the full spectrum of life for awhile. Oh well. I think I'm coming back to normal-ish. For those of you who don't already know... I'm now bartending and shift leading in addition to serving.
My last wind ensemble concert was a few weeks ago. It actually went really well. I am hoping to play with another group of some type in the near future. Perchance I could play again with them in the Fall, but that is so far away that I'm not counting on it.
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Again I question happiness... At work I am being offered quite an opportunity, the chance to become a manager in the future of a large corporate restaurant. However this week I've been very upset over the realization that this job takes up all the energy I want to spend on dance, music, theatre, and other endeavours. A job which I took because it allowed me the time and income to focus on other things is now taking over. So I am starting to think that I need to reevaluate what I really want. Do I want to just serve and spend the majority of my time auditioning for acting and modeling gigs? Or do I continue on with the career that "society" approves of? The status that comes with such a job is nice. You feel accepted, good at what you do, as if you have status. Because in this world you do, a manager has some status. It may be a shitty status in the great scheme of things. But it is something, and many don't have it. Mostly I feel flattered, and I like anything that makes me feel like I'm good at something. Don't we all? Don't humans want to be successful? But I'm good at many things. I guess I am just drawn torwards whichever one I'm being openly praised for at the moment. It is not hard to do. I think the reason most people don't is because perhaps they are not that good at many things.
Part of the hesitance to give up the management opportunities lies in the uncertainty in the other path. The life of an artist is pretty rough. Unless a large studio or agency likes you and continues to use you, than it's a hard life. There are so many actors out there, even consistantly working ones...who we still never hear about. Yeah you land a decent gig...you're ok. But it is hard to make a living doing single shoots or tv spots. It's the unknown versus the known, so of course the known is the easiest path to follow. I become a manager at Elephant Bar I pretty much no what I'm in for. As long as I'm not stupid and I don't break any rules, that I have a job. As someone who dabbles in music, dances, acts, and on occassion models... I can't depend on anything.
And on that abrupt note...I'm off to bed.
I am graduating this weekend. Or rather not. I decided not to walk. My parent's would rather take me to dinner, and I would rather not sit in the elements for 6 hours straight. Expect graduation announcements....
Work is stressful. I sortof short circuited and stopped existing in the full spectrum of life for awhile. Oh well. I think I'm coming back to normal-ish. For those of you who don't already know... I'm now bartending and shift leading in addition to serving.
My last wind ensemble concert was a few weeks ago. It actually went really well. I am hoping to play with another group of some type in the near future. Perchance I could play again with them in the Fall, but that is so far away that I'm not counting on it.
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Again I question happiness... At work I am being offered quite an opportunity, the chance to become a manager in the future of a large corporate restaurant. However this week I've been very upset over the realization that this job takes up all the energy I want to spend on dance, music, theatre, and other endeavours. A job which I took because it allowed me the time and income to focus on other things is now taking over. So I am starting to think that I need to reevaluate what I really want. Do I want to just serve and spend the majority of my time auditioning for acting and modeling gigs? Or do I continue on with the career that "society" approves of? The status that comes with such a job is nice. You feel accepted, good at what you do, as if you have status. Because in this world you do, a manager has some status. It may be a shitty status in the great scheme of things. But it is something, and many don't have it. Mostly I feel flattered, and I like anything that makes me feel like I'm good at something. Don't we all? Don't humans want to be successful? But I'm good at many things. I guess I am just drawn torwards whichever one I'm being openly praised for at the moment. It is not hard to do. I think the reason most people don't is because perhaps they are not that good at many things.
Part of the hesitance to give up the management opportunities lies in the uncertainty in the other path. The life of an artist is pretty rough. Unless a large studio or agency likes you and continues to use you, than it's a hard life. There are so many actors out there, even consistantly working ones...who we still never hear about. Yeah you land a decent gig...you're ok. But it is hard to make a living doing single shoots or tv spots. It's the unknown versus the known, so of course the known is the easiest path to follow. I become a manager at Elephant Bar I pretty much no what I'm in for. As long as I'm not stupid and I don't break any rules, that I have a job. As someone who dabbles in music, dances, acts, and on occassion models... I can't depend on anything.
And on that abrupt note...I'm off to bed.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
A thought and an update
In this world, we often feel sorry for ourselves...when in all reality it is our fault. It is our fault when we let people torment us and our fault for giving them that power. I know someone who is completely devastated, obsessed, and devoured due to another. The person who tortures them obviously doesn't see the good in them, doesn't value their qualities. (As much as the first party would like to believe.) Often in these situations (and indeed this one) people keep giving that bad person the power, they let them control their emotions, life, and every action. Every breathing moment of life is spent doing things in such a way that "Maybe they'll see and realize they do love me." It can come off as sad, it can come off as desperate, and it's never going to work out that way. Speaking from recent experience... It is not unusual or unnatural or unhealthy to yearn for or mourn for someone you lose for a little while, it is actually better, otherwise it's going to come back to get you later. But at a certain point you have to grudgingly start severing those ties, distract yourself, tuck the letters away in a drawer. Stop stalking them on facebook. (This was my huge flaw for awhile.) If you ever want to have a chance at a healthy and well formed relationship with that person, you have to stop giving them power over you. Otherwise you become their plaything, their slave. This being said, they have some growing to do too...and you better realize that. Otherwise you are weak and will throw yourself at them when they say they need you, when they probably are only going to use you. But once you start this process you give yourself a chance. And you may even surprise yourself, in the resignation of not having that person you may find someone even better. And it is hard to admit they are better at first, it's hard to be open to being with them and not saying "Oh we're just having fun"... But as you let everything slip and get back to being you, you'll realize that you are happier then that other person ever made you feel. Eventually that other person, who is bad for you, will fade to a memory...maybe you thihnk of them and the good times and still regret the way some things happened, but you don't let them have that power to twist you into something that isn't you. You will stop throwing yourself at them... You will stop plotting to kill their significant other... You will never give in when they call you crying and say they want you and only you... You will realize that they just broke up and are lonely or only want you for the basest reasons... But right now you can't. You need to stop holding them close to your heart and let life happen in its beautiful way.
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And now for something completely different...
Recent events are quite interesting. I was scouted a few weeks ago, via my online modeling portfolio by a casting director for America's Next Top Model. It turns out that this cycle they are only taking short models. So I said, alright, sounds like fun... (Thinking this lady was crazy.) But she was serious, I talked with her on the phone, then met her at Starbucks. A couple days ago (Tuesday) I went to do the actual audition. The recruited girls had to show up at 7am, but we got to go straight in. (Thank goodness I wasn't open call...those girls were outside in the rain when I got there and still there when I left at 9am.) The audition was simple, talking in front of a camera...the application was 15 pages long though, plus some photos. There were only about 30 girls recruited from the Bay Area, so that is sortof a compliment in itsself. So this being the second audition stop, it may be awhile before I hear back....the videos have to be watched by everyone- including Tyra!
That being said, I'm thinking when I send my stuff out to agencies, I'll look for modeling representation as well as acting.
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And now for something completely different...
Recent events are quite interesting. I was scouted a few weeks ago, via my online modeling portfolio by a casting director for America's Next Top Model. It turns out that this cycle they are only taking short models. So I said, alright, sounds like fun... (Thinking this lady was crazy.) But she was serious, I talked with her on the phone, then met her at Starbucks. A couple days ago (Tuesday) I went to do the actual audition. The recruited girls had to show up at 7am, but we got to go straight in. (Thank goodness I wasn't open call...those girls were outside in the rain when I got there and still there when I left at 9am.) The audition was simple, talking in front of a camera...the application was 15 pages long though, plus some photos. There were only about 30 girls recruited from the Bay Area, so that is sortof a compliment in itsself. So this being the second audition stop, it may be awhile before I hear back....the videos have to be watched by everyone- including Tyra!
That being said, I'm thinking when I send my stuff out to agencies, I'll look for modeling representation as well as acting.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Sorry
Well, we all know I have two disasterous relationships in my life that I wish could be better. I've decided, in light of current events, that the one is not getting fixed today. This is the one I've been miserable over, so I need to do something with my energy. So I've decided to try again to make ammends on the other one. (I had recently proclaimed that the ball was in her court and I have nothing to do with it. But whatever, life is obviously too short.) This particular person is strange, I have no idea what I did. Unlike my other mess-up this may have been caused by me being me was no longger what she wanted in her life. Whereas I screwed up the other thing by not being me. (Do you ever feel like you can't win? Thats why I guess you should just be you.)
What I wanted to write about before I went into a manic deppressive spiral last night, was percieved right time. (But then I have to be a girl...which menas then crying all night and and hangover of depressed when you wake up at 1am, which means Tully's because making coffee isw ridiculous by then. Yeah don't be a girl.) However, one of my past favorite singer, Trisha Yearwood, had said about her desire for a recording career that she would go out and try making music and recording once she lost a considerable amount of weight. And she finally realized that this was ridiculous, and she just went out there and started recording and became a star. But her percieved right time was when she was 25 pounds lighter. Obviously she was wrong, her percieved right time was not good for her goals, she didn't need it. So when are we doing that in our life? When are we waiting for that perfect moment to do something? You sit there and calculate the way you think everyone else will react, what stuff you own, what experience you have, plan how to make yourself look better for whatever you want to do, and to what end? Is it really going to help? Or better yet, are you really ever going to do those things that you see as prerequisites? Or will they forever going to be stumbling blocks to your hopes and dreams. From now on lets try to do things we want to do, regardless of if we think the time is right. If you don't make it happen than it will never happen. And you get into a habit of putting things off, until you are completely crippled.
Oh well, at least my mom thinks I'm profound.
What I wanted to write about before I went into a manic deppressive spiral last night, was percieved right time. (But then I have to be a girl...which menas then crying all night and and hangover of depressed when you wake up at 1am, which means Tully's because making coffee isw ridiculous by then. Yeah don't be a girl.) However, one of my past favorite singer, Trisha Yearwood, had said about her desire for a recording career that she would go out and try making music and recording once she lost a considerable amount of weight. And she finally realized that this was ridiculous, and she just went out there and started recording and became a star. But her percieved right time was when she was 25 pounds lighter. Obviously she was wrong, her percieved right time was not good for her goals, she didn't need it. So when are we doing that in our life? When are we waiting for that perfect moment to do something? You sit there and calculate the way you think everyone else will react, what stuff you own, what experience you have, plan how to make yourself look better for whatever you want to do, and to what end? Is it really going to help? Or better yet, are you really ever going to do those things that you see as prerequisites? Or will they forever going to be stumbling blocks to your hopes and dreams. From now on lets try to do things we want to do, regardless of if we think the time is right. If you don't make it happen than it will never happen. And you get into a habit of putting things off, until you are completely crippled.
Oh well, at least my mom thinks I'm profound.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Chasing Pavements
I suppose in life all you an ever do is keep on living. I'm not someone who believes in suicide (although I don't judge anyone for it- normally there are other factors), so as long as you wake up in the morning- you're here, like it or not. So thing is you can keep on being who you are if everyone is happy or you can change it. Sometimes it takes someone else to realize that you don't like who you are. And the thing is it's not always that you yourself are a bad person or need to change, but rather you are a changed or bad person due to some variables in life. So maybe you do not need to change forwards into someone else, but get back to who you are. But how do you prove to someone that you've gotten back to you if you have no contact with them. Not many of us are going to be able to have it published in the paper.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Pictures of my Room
I got a bed yesterday and also went to IKEA.... so my room is shaping up nicely. I don't really feel like writing much, I'm watching the Daily Show.
(I'm very happy to have my keyboard in my room. I'm putting up shelves in that inset to the left of the keyboard. For DVDs and stuff. I'm becoming a DVD person. Specifically one who buys TV on DVD. Helloooo box set heaven.)
(The closet is good sized but its getting the next IKEA makeover. It needs some hooks on the left, a shelf over the clothing rod, and maybe shalves on the right. As well as a case of Container Store clear shoe boxes... Oh yeah and IKEA Antonius drawer bins for athletic clothes, dance wear, and sleepwear.)
(Thats the bookcase I just got at IKEA...only $20. Wasn't my first choice but once I got it in it actually works better than my first choice. I need an air pump for my football. Also my tv is pretty.)
Bob is going crazy...we switched to the Colbert Repor(t) and he loves Steven....
(I'm very happy to have my keyboard in my room. I'm putting up shelves in that inset to the left of the keyboard. For DVDs and stuff. I'm becoming a DVD person. Specifically one who buys TV on DVD. Helloooo box set heaven.)
(The closet is good sized but its getting the next IKEA makeover. It needs some hooks on the left, a shelf over the clothing rod, and maybe shalves on the right. As well as a case of Container Store clear shoe boxes... Oh yeah and IKEA Antonius drawer bins for athletic clothes, dance wear, and sleepwear.)
(Thats the bookcase I just got at IKEA...only $20. Wasn't my first choice but once I got it in it actually works better than my first choice. I need an air pump for my football. Also my tv is pretty.)Bob is going crazy...we switched to the Colbert Repor(t) and he loves Steven....
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Things... and Stuffs...
Hmmm. This blog just decided to post itself for fun, without anything in it.
I have to go to work soonish which is fairly lame.
But! I did get Super Bowl Sunday off!!!! So excited... I tried tricking people into working it, but then I got Kevin to work it because hes new and they didn't schedule him much. So yay! Football!
Anyways... I hate how they never explained on Sex and the City when Charlotte is kissing the gardner and her sister in law says something about it during cocktail hour and her mother in law says "Charlotte, you're a McDougal now!"... was that just her being drunk? (She did then try to smoke her cigarette backwards) or is that like a thing? Do they all kiss the gardner? It just bugs me everytime I see that episode.
Oh and I cut my hair...
And I'm finally getting a bed tomorrow. I sold my loft bed yesterday, and now I'm getting a used Day Bed, also from IKEA. Now I can get lots of pillows and my bed can be like a couch during the day. Because my ridiculously huge TV is in my room...so if anyone wants to watch a movie that would be the best bet. Also lord only knows when Erica and I will actually get a couch....
Oh, btw... Gobama!
ha.
I have to go to work soonish which is fairly lame.
But! I did get Super Bowl Sunday off!!!! So excited... I tried tricking people into working it, but then I got Kevin to work it because hes new and they didn't schedule him much. So yay! Football!
Anyways... I hate how they never explained on Sex and the City when Charlotte is kissing the gardner and her sister in law says something about it during cocktail hour and her mother in law says "Charlotte, you're a McDougal now!"... was that just her being drunk? (She did then try to smoke her cigarette backwards) or is that like a thing? Do they all kiss the gardner? It just bugs me everytime I see that episode.
Oh and I cut my hair...
And I'm finally getting a bed tomorrow. I sold my loft bed yesterday, and now I'm getting a used Day Bed, also from IKEA. Now I can get lots of pillows and my bed can be like a couch during the day. Because my ridiculously huge TV is in my room...so if anyone wants to watch a movie that would be the best bet. Also lord only knows when Erica and I will actually get a couch....Oh, btw... Gobama!
ha.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
New Years Resolutions 2009
Here are my resolutions... In no particular order. I'm not THAT organized.
1. Continue from last year- eating healthier. I did pretty well with this last year. But I hope that having a real house/kitchen will help even more.
2. Be Myself. This is super important. Sometimes I try to be whoever I think people want me to be. But that doesn't work out so well. I don't do it around everyone, or even all the time. But I think I should never do it again.
3. Get my fashion blog up and running. Aim for a few consistent posts per week and eventually work to one a day.
4. Find a talent agent...hopefully in January- rather than the whole year.
5. Stop the irrational hating of things. For some reason I decide I dislike things for no real reason. Case in point: Finding Nemo, other annimated movies, Family Guy, other things I can't remember right now.
6. Be unashamed of the things I like. Such as Sex and the City, Rhianna, Star 101.3, etc. So I like them, so what? That doesn't make me a lesser person. It just makes me diversified.
7. Draw and read more. I like these things. School just started getting in the way.
8. Try and relax. Because I never do. And all the stress I had this last year was ridiculous.
Oh, yeah. And find a new job.
1. Continue from last year- eating healthier. I did pretty well with this last year. But I hope that having a real house/kitchen will help even more.
2. Be Myself. This is super important. Sometimes I try to be whoever I think people want me to be. But that doesn't work out so well. I don't do it around everyone, or even all the time. But I think I should never do it again.
3. Get my fashion blog up and running. Aim for a few consistent posts per week and eventually work to one a day.
4. Find a talent agent...hopefully in January- rather than the whole year.
5. Stop the irrational hating of things. For some reason I decide I dislike things for no real reason. Case in point: Finding Nemo, other annimated movies, Family Guy, other things I can't remember right now.
6. Be unashamed of the things I like. Such as Sex and the City, Rhianna, Star 101.3, etc. So I like them, so what? That doesn't make me a lesser person. It just makes me diversified.
7. Draw and read more. I like these things. School just started getting in the way.
8. Try and relax. Because I never do. And all the stress I had this last year was ridiculous.
Oh, yeah. And find a new job.
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